I remember [ a 24 years remembrance ]

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I remember not feeling good enough

Hard to believe it might seem

I remember walking into the room and feeling so shy

I always wondered why my beauty didn't light up the room when I walked in.

All it did was blend with the darkness

I remember those long walks in doubt I took

The silence that felt so deafening

The breeze choking every part of me

Leaving me with the need to scream

I remember not being sure of anything

Still not sure I'm sure about being sure

I remember laughing hard with those friends that never did stay around

Portraying absolutely no worries

So happy with what life dealt me

Moving with every flow

I remember words being so easy to type

Forming beautiful expressions of my thoughts that everyone wanted to be a part of

I then began looking for words after my heart got ripped

Not so easy anymore I must say

I remember not feeling anything anymore and not knowing and believing anymore

I remember how 6years became 4years then 4years became 5years

I remember her strives running back and forth trying to make the 5years unextended

I remember Tearing every night 

And the serious pound in my chest

I remember him talking down on me

I still wonder if that was with love or pure ignorance

I remember every little misunderstood moments and The things that became of it

The nights I hated myself

And the ones I got closure

I remember all their lies and the hateful words they said

What do they really know about my ordinary life

I remember those days jumping bikes in the rain

Even though I was your biggest supporter,

Thank God you have been banned

Now I can breathe and take things as it comes.

I remember working real hard and not getting paid nothing

All my sweat and nothing to show for it.
i remember how memories remain and every little feeling i still can taste. i remember how i remember remembering all this things i remember. a feeling i never want to forget ever.
(the most remembered moments of the 24 years I have lived)