DAY 7 || I'M HAVING "YOUR" BABY

He was my best friend

Was the thought in my head

As I saw the lines turn from one to two 

I'm having a baby 

I'm not ready 

But I need the assurance that no matter 

how crazy life gets,

Something, someone is going to love me

regardless and unconditionally

I'm having a baby

Your baby

I'm joining the club in eight months time

I just finally stocked up on red wine last week

And ironically I'm taking my first and last glass

till nine months or more

My Olivia pope dreams finally crash down

But isn't that what mother's do

Denying themselves of what they really want

I'm having a baby

Your baby

And I'm not going to tell you

Nor anyone else

I'm going to take enough photos

Before my third trimester so that

I can put up everyday with no one suspecting

I'm having a baby

Your baby

And I'm not going to tell you

I know you will probably offer 

to be there by my side

But deep down hate being there so much

And I would probably want you there

But to be my lover and nothing less

I'm having a baby

Your baby

And I'm not going to tell you

Nor anyone else

Moms would probably freak out

And my friends too

That's why I'm going to keep it

A secret till the baby is almost here

I'm having a baby

Your baby

Who would have thought

That my body didn't get the memo

That you left me already

For someone else

And heartbreak is already my baby

I'm having a baby

Your baby

I always did like big blouses

Now they will make sense

To wear everyday

I would love those maternity posts

But I'm not telling anyone

Until you are almost or already here

I'm having a baby

Your baby

And I'm hoping that

he or she Or they

Won't be as insecure

As their daddy

I'm having a baby

Your baby

And yes finally

I get to dress up a mini me

Or mini you

In coordinating outfits

That everyone will envy

I'm having a baby

Your baby

And I hope they get your thick hair, voice

and smartness

but just that and nothing more

definitely my cute nose, ears and eyes too

and maybe my full lips and courage

Whatever they do get,

I really hope its all the positivity

not the negativity too 

I'm having a baby

Your baby

Or maybe it's a joke

One you will never know

Until about 8 months time

When I maybe let you know That I finally had a baby who would love me too.